We aren’t always able to correlate certain feelings in our life with events that are happening. We can’t always instantaneously identify situations that are impacting the way out daily routines shift and change. A negative experience or emotion in one facet of life easily influences other areas and we don’t even realize and When this happens, it’s a natural reaction to feel anxious, overwhelmed, scared and exhausted. I know this because, let’s be honest, I live it frequently.
I am an emotional person. I get teary-eyed when a funeral passes by, regardless of whether I knew the departed or not. I often let TV commercials and shows move me to actual empathy for on-screen personality’s heartbreak or dilemma.
So it was no surprise that the end of a milestone school year for two of my three boys had me in shambles emotionally. My youngest will head into his final year of elementary school next year. My middle son is going to be traversing the awkward, treacherous journey that is middle school; and my oldest heads confidently to high school to pursue a future in one of the interesting fields he’s chosen as a potential career.
For the last three years, I’ve held these pieces together as a single parent on one income. We’ve learned how to become an entirely new family, overcome some of the hardest battles we’ve had to date, and we are tougher, stronger and better for all of it. And I am so unbelievably proud of it. There was just one problem.
I was a freaking wreck about it. I’m well aware that my job as a parent is to enable my children to become productive, caring and successful (using the word “successful” loosely because I do believe success is a relative thing and different for everyone) individuals. It’s my job to ensure there aren’t three extra assholes roaming the planet when they each turn 18. So far, we are on track for all of those things. I should have been excited that I’m accomplishing my goal and that my children are successful.
Really, I am excited about it. But here’s what I have learned. When one facet of my life is out of sequence, when something is changing or uprooting or settling or all of the above it directly impacts my entire life.
Not only do I feel anxious about my children getting older and gaining more independence, but those anxious thoughts bleed over into my work mindset as well. Not only am I overwhelmed at all the coordination required to attend all of the necessary school functions, but that in turn overwhelms me with all of the other commitments that I have.
Circumstances can trigger thoughts. Thoughts cause feelings. Feelings result in actions. And actions cause results. There’s an endless amount of fascinating research regarding thought process and how our mindset influences our actions.
I personally know from experience not only with myself but with other people who I have worked with in training and help coaching that our mind can be our biggest enemy. And this cycle is one of the simplest ways to describe the phenomenon.
The circumstance: my kids are stepping into new grades, schools and experiences.The thoughts: they will have more independence and will be subject to new challenges.The feelings: (here comes the can of worms) I’m frightened because with this newfound independence could come new mistakes, I’m overwhelmed because I’m not sure what to expect either. I’m anxious because I want them to be successful. I feel sad because my kids are that much closer to being on their own. There’s a lot more. We don’t need to go into it. The Actions: Panic. Because that’s exactly what we do when we are overwhelmed and anxious and are not in the right mindset to control it. Maybe over react to small situations because I’m on edge and anxious. (And cry…Because I’m sad)
The result: Pure chaos, disorder and frustration in my life because I’m panicking and on edge.
It is no way to live. So what options do we have? Sure, we can wallow in our self pity. We can make vague social media posts that urge others to say “what’s wrong?”. Or, we can find a solution.
This next part is truly mind blowing. It is so obvious that I can’t believe I haven’t been applying it all along. Take a look at that cycle and how we go from circumstances to results. Now work backwards.
The idea is to change things until you can’t anymore… when I look at what causes the results, It is my actions. Can I change those? Yes, I can. My feelings cause my actions, I can also reign those in. Because my thoughts are what controls my actions. That’s where the buck stops. Because I cannot change the circumstances.
Sometimes you will be able to change the circumstances. Sometimes you will only be able to change your results. But the trick is to find where the gap is in the way you deal with things.
So I take the CIRCUMSTANCES and I change my THOUGHTS but them. I think about it realize how lucky I am to have three amazing kids and I reflect on how hard I’ve worked and how proud I FEEL of myself and my family. This pride motivates me to work harder in the future, and create ACTIONS that will help me flourish in months and years to come. And the RESULTS? You can see where this is going.
Change your thoughts, change your mindset… change your life.